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August 2, 2009

Once Was

I had a dream last week and I remember. I know we dream a lot in general, it's just that most of the time we don't recollect! I never do anyway, 4 times a year maybe! I was seeing ghosts... I recall sleeping in my bed, then seeing huge dark shadows approaching... I was panicky to say the least, then everything came in focus and I saw their faces...

They were just like us. Normal looking attributes like us with clothes and bodies and glasses, etc., but they were definitely ghosts... There was this one vivid face of a man staring at me emotionless... They were looking for something in my house, everywhere... Something, but I'm not sure what...

Then I was outside, in the bright sunshine... Myself and about 20 other 'ghosts' were standing on a dock, ocean glistening... Then I saw my dad, in his pajamas and the old robe that he used to wear years back when I was a little boy... He was standing next to me, smiling... and then he raised his arm and pointed to the glaring sun while staring directly at it... then I started crying uncontrollably... I was bitterly sad for I don't know why...

I do not know what it all means, but that's the bulk of it. Good thing is that I saw my dad yesterday and he was happy as a clam. For me, I think my 'life' will go on after this one. Where/whatever I may be/become. Must true 'life' be presented in a physical form to be called such?


While I was searching for a particular Flash file from my old journals, I came across the above written back in May 16th, 2005. That was quite a dream that I had. I saw my mom and dad this past weekend and they're still relatively happy. Anyway, so many odd entries that I wrote. My very own entertainment. The below was from July 22nd the same year. Short and sweet.



Enlightenment for a wave in the ocean is the moment the wave realises that it is water.

How well do I know myself? My other selves? Aren't we always learning? Learning and absorbing material that goes into our brains - and our hearts! Learn from the 'good' things, also from the 'bad', and then create something beautiful...

Know who you are... and embrace!

Quote: Thich Nhat Hanh


I found my file. Enjoy your Sunday.

August 3, 2009

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Perforate My Heart v2. I've posted Flash files before, but have never incorporating it with my own photographs. I had this one in mind a few days ago. I only wish I know more scripting. But that's too much for my little cabeza. I also went to the beach again. Photos upcoming. I mean 'photo'... I only took a few.

Enjoy the darkness, I mean your evening.


Currently listening:
Michael Andrews - The Artifact & Living

August 4, 2009

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I just mowed the lawn around 9am this morning. And it was hot! doh! Thank goodness I was armed with some refreshing iced tea in the fridge. Now here I am, staring at the screen, typing away... Thinking of you! :-)

This photos was taken yesterday. I took about 10 total and this one I like best. I wished the sand were smoother. One thing I noticed about my photography is that I try not to stage things. Of course, if I want to photograph a cup, sometimes I still need to put the cup somewhere... Like from the cupboard to the table. Other times I try to frame/shoot the subject as is. Nothing more. Nothing less.

In this particular photograph, I wanted to try out this technique... It turned out pretty much the way I wanted it and I'm quite satisfied. With you sharp eyes, I'm sure you can spot something peculiar about it! :-) Here's the full version.

Hmm... What to shoot today?


Currently listening:
Ulrich Schnauss - Gone Forever [Robin Guthrie version]

August 5, 2009

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Babysitting. This boy named Archer just turned 3 this past weekend. I'm exactly four decades ahead of him.


Currently listening:
Blur - Coffee and TV

August 6, 2009

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Leuchtturm. Sometimes I think I need to write less in a photoblog. Well, unless it's someone else's words, or music, that is!

Night night every booty. :-)


Currently listening:
Hugo Martin - Avril 14th

August 7, 2009

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Enid. It's Enid from Ghost World. Thanks to Bridie, I took a picture of one of her toy dolls while babysitting this Wednesday. Oright, I took a photo of Archer, too! :-)

I re-watched Donnie Darko today. Do you believe in time travel?


Currently listening:
Michael Andrews - Liquid Spear Waltz

August 12, 2009

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Somewhere Between Living and Dying.

I hope you have a good day today. xo, r


Currently listening:
The Hope Blister - Friday Afternoon

August 13, 2009

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Clean Cut Boy. Spent another couple of hours at the beach this afternoon with Bridie and Archer. Beautiful late afternoon sun with gorgeous light. Can't beat. For this photo originally I opt for the color version with the golden hue, but then I striped the colors and I think I prefer the black n' white better. More edgy and harsh. Here's the original full version. What do you think? Hmm... Nothing else to report!

I hope you all are doing great! What's new?


Currently listening:
Cocteau Twins - Oomingmak [Instrumental]

August 17, 2009

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The Stars We Are. Do you have 61 minutes? Thursday Afternoon is by far my favorite track by Brian Eno. Currently it feels like the beginning of autumn. It's 10am and there's still a heavy blanket of marine layer above my head. I can hear the garbage truck roaring outside, making its rounds.

Sometimes I wonder, if I am a better person than yesterday. Sometimes I wonder, if I'll ever be more than what I am today. And if tomorrow is what it's all cracked up to be! Sometimes.

How are you?


Currently listening:
Brian Eno - Thursday Afternoon

August 18, 2009

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Powerlines. Curved lines. Straight lines. Which do you prefer?

Both. Good answer. Now let's dance to the Plaza.


Currently listening:
John Foxx - Plaza

August 19, 2009

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Powerlines v2.

Powerlines v2. The other day I stopped by a print house inquiring some information. The curator there asked me for my business card. I didn't have it with me because I never carry them around. It never occurred to me. I felt a bit silly and unprofessional. Do you carry yours with you?

I sent her one the very next day along with a Thank You card. Now let's dance to some OMD shall we?


Currently listening:
Orchestral Manoeuvres In The Dark - Telegraph [Exclusive Remix]

August 20, 2009

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Alec at the beach.

Outlooking v4. This morning I'll be taking some photos of a friend of mine. I think he needs some promotional photos of himself. Even though we've known each others for years, I'll bring my business/calling cards with me. On my way back, I'll most likely take photos of elsewhere as well. Photos of Elsewhere. I kinda of like that. Or Nowhere.

Here's one with Alec. He's the sweetness of my life.


Currently listening:
Air - Mike Mills

August 21, 2009

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Gothika. I can't seem to focus on coming up with a series of photographs that share a common theme. I can't come up with anything cohesive. I tried previously, but my effort eludes me somehow. Every one photo is special to me, well, the ones I upload here at least. As far as photography goes, I think a body of work that all shares the same theme can either strengthen or weaken the series itself.

Say if you have a series of 10 photos of trees, most likely they will compliment one another. But on the flip side, won't they compete with each another as well? Yet if you have the same number of photos of all different subject matter, then I ask how exactly would they relate to one another in the series? Must they have to be? Must they share any similarities? But that's how I feel.

Personally, I prefer not to see the same thing, shoot the same thing - mostly. I guess people like consistency. Or that people rather prefer it! Yeah? It's safe... and it's been done over and over. Why would I want to change the perfect equation? I don't know. Maybe someone can straighten me out someday.

In the meantime, I'm just going to stick with what I love. Seems like I'm never at the same place with anyone.


Currently listening:
Sisters of Mercy - Untitled

August 22, 2009

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Orphée. The look on his face somehow reminds me of the movie Orphée by Jean Cocteau. Do you remember that film? Magnifique! If you haven't seen it, it's worth a look. Jean is one of my favorite filmmakers / artists. 'nuff said.

Enjoy your Saturday Boopy!


Currently listening:
Libera - A Song of Enchantment

August 24, 2009

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David. Happy Monday everyone. David says hello! :-)

Listening to this song again, I most definitely can relate to it today / this year.


Currently listening:
Dead Can Dance - Severance [Live]

August 26, 2009

The Things You Love - Revisit

I was looking for a story or two from Venerable Master Hsing Yun which I posted from my old blog, but I found the post below instead. Written back in March 23rd, 2007. I tend to write a bit more back then. These days, I use my camera instead. Maybe I can find a happy medium. The quote from the entry below by Lin Chi always gets me. It makes me stand still and look at all the things around me. Appreciating what I have and what I have not. This life is a gift, but is there more to life than life itself? There's another memorable quote which I read last night by a philosopher named John Locke:

No man's knowledge can go beyond his experiences.

For some reason I find that so true, somewhat sad yet beautiful.


While I was driving home the other day, I was thinking about non-attachment. For instance, I love music, yet I have made myself a slave. I love to read and look at new things, for I made myself a slave to those things, as well. I once read that it is the things that we love that make us blind and deaf. I guess that's somewhat true. I imagine myself a world without music [but where will it go?!?]... I'm sure it'll be difficult at first, but I wonder if I will 'hear' something - different? I guess it depends on how receptive I am.

I finally mailed the photobooks of Medina which I made for my nephews yesterday. I don't know why I took so long to do it. It was last July... Where did the time go? I still have her picture on my phone. We really don't know what we miss until they're gone. How trite, but yet real. I still wonder where our loved ones go when they leave...

I posted the story below a year ago. Exactly why I rehash material I do not know. Maybe I just want to keep remembering. If I find something worthwhile, I think it's worth the little time don't you think? No matter how long you've been away, remember to come back to it. I try to keep myself grounded every now and then by re-watching the movies that I love, re-reading stories that are significant to me, watching kids play, listening to my friends and family talk - closely. Life gives you a good reminder every now and then. But again, it all depends on how receptive we are.

The following piece is by Thich Nhat Hanh. To me, this is one of those reminders. Thanks again for reading everyone and have a wonderful weekend.

For many years I have told this story. Suppose two astronauts go to the moon. When they arrive, they have an accident and find out that they have only enough oxygen for two days. There is no hope of someone coming from Earth in time to rescue them. They have only two days to live. If you asked them at that moment, "What is your deepest wish?" they would answer, "To be back home walking on the beautiful planet Earth." That would be enough for them; they would not want anything else. They would not want to be the head of a large corporation, a big celebrity or president of the United States. They would not want anything except to be back on Earth--to be walking on Earth, enjoying every step, listening to the sounds of nature and holding the hand of their beloved while contemplating the moon.

We should live every day like people who have just been rescued from the moon. We are on Earth now, and we need to enjoy walking on this precious, beautiful planet. The Zen master Lin Chi said, "The miracle is not to walk on water but to walk on the Earth." I cherish that teaching. I enjoy just walking, even in busy places like airports and railway stations. In walking like that, with each step caressing our Mother Earth, we can inspire other people to do the same. We can enjoy every minute of our lives.


Currently listeninging:
Nuno Malo - White Bodhisattva

August 29, 2009

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Road to Nowhere.

Before a person studies Zen, mountains are mountains and waters are waters;

After a first glimpse into the truth of Zen, mountains are no longer mountains and waters are not waters;

After enlightenment, mountains are once again mountains and waters once again waters.

Text: Dogen

August 31, 2009

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Death's Door.

Death's Door. Death is like an old friend who waits for you 'til the very end. Someone who never strays; a friendship which never breaks.


Currently listening:
Michael Andrews - Manipulated Living

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